I was afraid you'd judge me...

This is what someone said to me today.

"I was afraid to tell you because I was afraid you would think I was bad and that you would judge me."

I felt hurt because I would never judge this person for what she was telling me.  I totally understood what she was going through and really felt her heart in our conversation.  I'm hurt that she didn't confide in me earlier, but I am more hurt by the reason for her not telling me.

And it has caused me to do some self searching.

Do I judge others?

Do I cause others to think I judge them?

Is it just the way I am perceived because of my faith in Jesus?

Matthew 7:1

Romans 12:15

change is coming...

I am feeling a bit lot overwhelmed.

The hubs accepted a position as Senior Pastor at a church in Bridgeport, Alabama this past Sunday.  I am so excited about seeing what the Lord will do in this sleepy little town and in our own lives.

But to be quite honest, I'm pretty scared.  I mean, what do I know about being the preacher's wife????

I never thought that we would be at this point.  I know that this is what God has called the hubs to.  Selfishly, I wished that the hubs (and God, for that matter) would be content with the hubs doing associate or youth pastor stuff.  I'm comfortable being the youth pastor's wife.  I know how to be that woman.  I've grown accustomed to the idea of life as I know it.

And now that is all about to change.

I know that some of this fear I am feeling is a bit irrational.  I know that people will like me for me and not for who they think I should be.  I know that I don't have to be involved in everything, even if people think I should.

Most importantly, I know that God will lead me through all of this with His grace & mercy.